Some choices are best unmade before they begin to unravel the person who made them. I have made quite a few such choices but now I find this one to be oddly satisfying and extremely harmful. For obvious reasons (to anyone ”in the know”) the part of me that loves to watch me break is squeling with joy at the sight of that harm I’ve done to myself and yet if I stay this course, I make the next step easier for myself.
An odd tradeoff, future health issues and pain and murderous strain for the chance to get ahead of my curve of economic needs and set myself up pretty well. Frankly, I think for all the good reasons there are to continue to do this job I only stay here out of sheer masochism. This may not be much of a story, but it’s my way of apologizing for missing yesterday. Two stories will be put up as penance on the morrow.
An odd tradeoff, future health issues and pain and murderous strain for the chance to get ahead of my curve of economic needs and set myself up pretty well. Frankly, I think for all the good reasons there are to continue to do this job I only stay here out of sheer masochism. This may not be much of a story, but it’s my way of apologizing for missing yesterday. Two stories will be put up as penance on the morrow.
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